Inside joke by Headstrong

Why dont you help me fill in the empty spaces

Cuz hope is full of holes and you know we've got to replace this
But I know you disguise your sadness and your suprise
And a heart you've grown to despise.

We stare at each other with moon ears and glass eyes
and nothing's said or needed to be said because
the sheets in the bed have been stained red
and all those able bodied angels with the apples in their heads
I dont know whether to fuck you or to gut you like a...

This joke is getting kinda personal
Your laugh is like a scream that goes and goes and goes
I'm less invincible than terminal
Your love is like a sore that grows and grows and grows

Was it her maiden voyage, was it her maiden name
Or was she made in a country that couldn't shoulder the loss?
Was it her maiden voyage, was it her maiden name
Or was she made in a country that couldn't shoulder the loss?

This is a sign of my own design, my own demise
And when I think like this, I think I shouldn't think like this

I never miss, I'm crossin names off a list
I'm feeling nothing, I see nothing to shout about
You'll never know exactly what you can't live without...
Don't fucking touch me, don't even now I'm alive