I Will Not Die by Jude

It only hurts me when i'm awake
It seems to die with dreaming
And there's only so much that i can fake
When my whole life's careening down

I will not die

It only kills me 'cause i'm alive
And living this disaster
And it's all i can do now to survive
I live to beat my master down

I will not die
Down i will not die

When i'm well i long to be
Only in love with you
But i guess i'll never be whole
And you know it's true
It does not stop me that we all die
I know this trip's to slaughter
But if only i could let me cry
I feel the healing water roll down

I will not die
Down i will not die
Down i will not die