Telling You by Shawn Mullins

If i take this opportunity to tell you what happened,
Will it destroy our unity?
Will there be nothing left to tap into?
I hate to lay this on you, but i've been holding back these tears.
This morning i awakened from a dream so real
It's in my memory and has been for fifteen years,
And i don't mind if you have to tell someone --
I had to tell someone.
That's why i'm telling you.
Times were different then, and i was very young,
But i'm older now.
I'm angry now.
I don't know what to do.
I never thought i'd hate him,
But i've got to tell you brother,
My childhood has been taken.
I know now i was the other lover,
And i fought him the best way i could.
I got the hell out of there but it still cuts me like cold steel,
And i split like wood.
Sometimes i wonder if he knows or cares.
And it's alright if you have to tell someone --
I had to tell someone.
That's why i'm telling you.
Times were different then, and i was very young,
But i'm older now.
I'm angry now.
I don't know what to do, he thinks it all surrounds him.
That's just the way it is, don't want my kids around him.
But i can tell you this -- i don't expect you to feel the way i feel,
But i didn't know what else to do.
They say these things take time to heal.
I can start by telling you,
I can start by telling you,
I can start by telling you.