Chelsea Cutler - Snow In October

i don’t think i'm changing but i don’t feel the same【=◈‿◈=】
'snow in october' ep by chelsea cutler on itunes :
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feelings will change but i never feel enough
and time heals in waves but won’t fill the holes you dug
memories fade but i hold onto my love
i stay awake wishing on stars above
i try not to think about the ways that it's coming down
the things i was feeling then, i don’t wanna feel again
deep breaths coming in and out, one kick and i'm coming down
the things that i never said, i don't wanna hold them in
it snowed in october when i wanted rain
i don’t think i'm changing but i don’t feel the same
and all of my pieces that i gave away
i'm burning my body so i can stay warm
i tried to grow but i never change enough
i tried to be whole but somebody pulled the plug
all that i was crumbled beneath your weight
days turn to night and love withers into hate
i try not to think at all, the room never felt so small
i heard all the words you said, coloring my bones in red
have we lost the coast line yet? how deep does the water get?
the waves go above my head, i don't wanna hold my breath
it snowed in october when i wanted rain
i don’t think i'm changing but i don’t feel the same
and all of my pieces that i gave away
i'm burning my body so i can stay warm
photo by samuel elkins :):